1 Samuel 15&16
Saul is willful and blatantly disobedient
self worshiping
a liar
weak and excuse laden
sorry but NOT repentant
prideful
With God all things are possible so that in Christ I can be
willing and obedient
forgiven and worshipful
truthful and authentically transparent
repentant and forgiven
in forgiveness humbly follow

Please Abba I don't want to BE Saul....Thank you for Jesus, Your Spirit I don't have to. As painful as it is please more revealing of the evil of my heart.....You see the snake yet again stirring and the basket is becoming so old and weak....kill the snake that is me. My inner dialogue here lately~ I am so ashamed....w/God all things are possible. In Christ we are never abandoned. Saul became more and more crazy in his lack of devotion to You......
'tell our stories of surrender and rescue'
But it's so confusing Abba....

no it's not confusing it is unbelievable....

Saul to David
Snake to ....??
If I'm not a snake in a basket who am I?
Parying to discover and embrace the me You desire me to be....
Fearfully moving in that direction......to see the snake