1 Samuel 17; Psalm 9; Matthew 2

Willful vs willing
I so see myself over and over as unwilling and what I need to see is the reality of it's being a 'willfulness' that sweeps over me.....heck that resides in me.
The counterintuitiveness of being willing....the call to an obedience to it, that being.....the sense of Your calling me over and over, checking my willingness.....
I pray today to BE willing and soft and vulnerable....Risky to be sure but thinking riskier to be disobedient and willful/sinful in refusing....

From shepherd to giant killer....first indications of David's craziness/wholehearted devotion to God......wholehearted devotion and then the Psalm praising and devoting his thots and victories and everything to you.....Psalm 9: 10 Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you....a seeking heart YOU never deny....it's not easy or without hardship or pain.....risky and crazy sometimes......

willing......please Abba, Jesus...Holy Spirit....I so want to be willing forgive my sinful willful heart....I want to be crazy for You....