- I am sad this morning when I think of my friends.....that I don't get to, or ask them or just plain sad we don't talk about You or faith or journey's......maybe it's me and I need to figure out other things to talk about with them? and not just hide from them....feel weird around them..or maybe this desire is OK I need help to know what to do......how to do it...how to be a friend...
- not scared of the economy, of the future, of death or dying, not scared of Korea or the upcoming Hurricane season....scared I am not doing enough, sharing enough, wise enough to guide others who perhaps w/suffer from any of the above to the source of comfort, the only source of comfort of salvation of joy of eternal life....
- tired of feeling inadequate and incapable or more of allowing others to make me feel that way. I know I know I'm the one letting them.....if it's important to speak words that edify and encourage others isn't it important to hear them too? (btw anytime I start with the phrase 'I'm tired' ....ignore me )
- went to the wake of an old friend/ acquaintance.....stung to see how easilyw I let people go.
- wondering alot lately about how to become more effective perhaps I am supposed to simply be more loving...??
- if we all bear the image of God how can I live in that seeing? mine and theirs?
- this weepy / teary thing how can I keep doing it if it annoys others so...can it become attractional instead of annoying?
- how can something this wonderful be so hard to give away?
- realized in the shower this morning since I 'gave You' my time..I have more how the heck did that happen?
- will I ever leave my head in Your hands and enter in....in...into.....whatever?? will I ever move without blinking? will I ever live a life of risk?
- D's and C's and S's or I's ...will never understand each other and when your deepest longing is to be understood...THIS can be a depressing fact of life...'so work more at understanding them'
- how long am I going to pick and choose from the Bible?
- working at trying to fit....The best setting for a sighting of YOU is a full surrender of me. with Walking in humility is not synonomus with being a doormat but sometimes a willingness to be a doormat is what it takes in order to become a door.
so there's the brain dump this morning.....all without having read I know I can come back and delete it...just THIS is where I start and really most mornings the shit don't change.....I don't change and yet....I hear I am an image bearer and so are you? what do we do with THAT you know?? It may be who I am but it's not who I will remain, by the Grace of God who gives me chance after chance He'll change me....right?
Romans 10: 4 The earlier revelation was intended simply to get us ready for the Messiah, who then puts everything right for those who trust him to do it.
vs. 14-17 But how can people call for help if they don't know who to trust? And how can they know who to trust if they haven't heard of the One who can be trusted? And how can they hear if nobody tells them? And how is anyone going to tell them, unless someone is sent to do it? That's why Scripture exclaims, A sight to take your breath away! Grand processions of people telling all the good things of God! But not everybody is ready for this, ready to see and hear and act. Isaiah asked what we all ask at one time or another: "Does anyone care, God? Is anyone listening and believing a word of it?" The point is: Before you trust, you have to listen. But unless Christ's Word is preached, there's nothing to listen to.
