Thursday, September 3, 2009

Ezekiel 20 & 21; Psalm 111; Revelation 8

So much confusion this morning.....
so much confusion and doubt.....

So many tears and sadness in the confusion and yet in the tears and brokenness I am hoping and praying for guidance and strength to follow wherever it is You say go...I am hoping and praying to hear and to follow....I am hoping and praying in the brokenness to not be left naked and exposed and vulnerable.....I am hoping and praying to not run away......I am hoping to not fight too much AGAINST....I am hoping and praying to be renewed.....I want to just reach up my hand to You.....

Psalm 111: 1-2 Hallelujah! I give thanks to God with everything I've got—
Wherever good people gather, and in the congregation.
God's works are so great, worth
A lifetime of study—endless enjoyment!

Reading Your Word....the rest of my life reading and pondering and being convicted and encouraged by YOUR Word.....and Father I pray for all who follow Christ to do the same NOT for any reason but to stay connected and grateful to You......
Is it ok that this is what I believe??
Is it ok that this is what I say ad nauseum??

If I don't it feels like ......
I don't know anything Abba but I am grateful for You, Your Son, Your Spirit and Your Word.....maybe this morning that's enough....

1 comment:

Jill said...

Becky,

"So many tears and sadness in the confusion and yet in the tears and brokenness I am hoping and praying for guidance and strength to follow wherever it is You say go"

I am praying the same thing. I feel broken - in a good way. I sobbed today over my relationship with Him. I don't ever remember doing that and I know it is part of growing. Thanks for laying yourself bare.

Aspirations for the here and now:

  • Ask way more questions than offer answers.
  • Be more spontaneous and outrageous, loving with an abandon that isn't about me.
  • Be who I am even if she is crazy and weird
  • Do a good deed for a stranger
  • Don't be afraid to dream
  • Enjoy more sunrises.
  • Enjoy my husband and family.
  • Everyone has a story, listen to them.
  • Find a dreaming friend
  • Go on a picnic with Dan
  • Go snorkeling again.
  • Hear You
  • Help someone
  • Hike/walk regularly
  • Learn to live more and more SIMPLE
  • Learn to live without 'blinking'
  • Learn to love, really love
  • Learn to say I'm sorry w/o a 'but'
  • Learn to, strive to, be 'other' centered
  • Learn what it is to BE a friend
  • Lose 20 more pounds and take another trip to LA
  • Love, love, love on my Grandkids
  • Make a new friend
  • Read MORE books, make the time to read
  • Take alot of photos and learn how to take better ones and share better the ones I take.

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