Genesis 31-33; Luke 13

Being a wrestler ( I prefer wrestler over stubborn ass) myself, I love the story of Jacob wrestling with God.
I love and am so grateful that in all my years of wrestling with Him, in all the losses the closeness I have gained, the faith....

I spent 40+ years giving God little to no attention...I didn't even know that was what I was doing, that I was out for me.....i'm sure others knew it.....and then....then I got frightened that my children were going to live lives exactly like me...lackluster and without the joy of what I know now to be seeking Christ.....

So I started looking around and wrestling with some of what I was discovering....and then in the wrestling, the losing..... I became more and more focused on You.....
Luke 13 23-25 A bystander said, "Master, will only a few be saved?" He said, "Whether few or many is none of your business. Put your mind on your life with God. The way to life—to God!—is vigorous and requires your total attention. A lot of you are going to assume that you'll sit down to God's salvation banquet just because you've been hanging around the neighborhood all your lives. Well, one day you're going to be banging on the door, wanting to get in, but you'll find the door locked and the Master saying, 'Sorry, you're not on my guest list.'

Kind of cool you know.....resting in knowing that You've done and do it all and I'm to simply and completely surrender to that. And in that surrender who know what I'll 'get to' do.........