Genesis 25& 26; Psalm 6; Luke 10

Starting a Daniel Fast today, praying to be able to do it honestly. I am a cheat and dishonest in most things. Looking at this has been filled w/both anticipation and wonder, wondering IF I can really do it. Knowing in the past when I have how it's been filled w/MORE than i can ever imagine. Felt better on it for physical reasons and yet never maintain any kind of discipline when it comes to eating when it's done, praying this year is different.
Also doing a ruthless evaluation of myself in the context of the 7 Journey's, looking for a year long plan of I wills....nervous and excited about it as well.

After so many years of wrestling against being a sheep, protected and in Your care this morning Luke excites me. I am a sheep, stubborn and dirty...chosen by YOU. Actually in Your flock. I spent alot of time in the wrestling trying to find ways to earn this gift. I can't, couldn't, never would have been able to do so, if I had it wouldn't feel the same as now. If I hadn't wrestled with the truth of it i wouldn't be as grateful. It's an amazing thing and to be filled w/wonder at it opens my heart to the MORE of it. It's not about sitting on the gift.....it's about living in gratitude for it. It's not about looking to receive the more of it.....it's about...I don't know when i get to trying to explain it rather than being awed and grateful I get lost, full of myself.

Luke 10: ^18-20Jesus said, "I know. I saw Satan fall, a bolt of lightning out of the sky. See what I've given you? Safe passage as you walk on snakes and scorpions, and protection from every assault of the Enemy. No one can put a hand on you. All the same, the great triumph is not in your authority over evil, but in God's authority over you and presence with you. Not what you do for God but what God does for you—that's the agenda for rejoicing."

²¹At that, Jesus rejoiced, exuberant in the Holy Spirit. "I thank you, Father, Master of heaven and earth, that you hid these things from the know-it-alls and showed them to these innocent newcomers. Yes, Father, it pleased you to do it this way.

²²"I've been given it all by my Father! Only the Father knows who the Son is and only the Son knows who the Father is. The Son can introduce the Father to anyone he wants to."

^23-24He then turned in a private aside to his disciples. "Fortunate the eyes that see what you're seeing! There are plenty of prophets and kings who would have given their right arm to see what you are seeing but never got so much as a glimpse, to hear what you are hearing but never got so much as a whisper."

I am blown away this morning with the gift, in the blowing away I will be softer right? In the softer I am more Yielded and grateful.....

Now, I should stop but the story of Martha and Mary....I have always been ashamed at not being more of a Martha, at not being as productive as others...I think i am hearing I am not made wrong and sometimes I need to hear that.