Psalm 121; Mark 9-10

This commercial disturbs me....I can't get a cut a paste to work, youtube/check out REALLY moments re:Windows phone.

It disturbs me because it is me. Addicted to information...connection. I read blogs and twitters and emails and miss the people right in front of me. I tell myself I don't, but in watching that commercial I think I do. I remember being in Dara's hospital room w/Nehe right there and all of us with our phones taking pics of him and editing and twittering and sending them, instead of simply enjoying Nehe. It convicted me then but not for long, my addiction prohibits looking at the NOW for too long because there is too much out there for me, or so it seems.

In thinking about quitting my job I get scared.....and instead of looking to Him who saves me I look for affirmation and approval from everyone and everything around me, confirmation. And the Psalm this morning tells me to look to You and in THAT looking I am protected and guided and convicted and forgiven and asked to forgive. I get distracted by my needs..no, my wants.
There's a moment in Mark 9:8 where suddenly they look around, they no longer saw anyone with them but Jesus....nothing but Jesus, can we, are we expected, could we get a moment like that??
I sat there this morning wondering about a disconnect from everything digital and thought 'no that's way too weird' and then in reading a short verse before Mark 10 I hear Him addressing my thinking it's weird and pulling away all that and calling me out that I think I would be embarassed to follow into this. Maybe more embarassed if I told anyone and more incapable of carrying it out, of following through.
I don't know I take my time with You in the mornings so seriously....that You do speak to me there and what if in a stripping away of technological information I could hear more...

it's just weird and yet where i may be heading if I have an ounce of trusting You in me???