John 3

Love doing the various groups and DG in all of them.
Love having I will's that connect and knowing it's Your Spirit helping me to become aware, to with Your help, change.
Hate that obedience is such a foreign concept for me, not behaving a certain way to get results I want or think others want, that's NOT foreign to me...what I hate is that behaving out of obedience, because You say so and not for what I can get, that that is foreign to me........ that, I hate.
That I wrestle against everything without first looking to You and Your desires for me.
That I want what I want so deeply I can't even see the wake I push in that sometimes, that, I hate.
Love that there is becoming a different way to look at things, to look to You.

Grace and hope drive me further and further.....

Hate that I have to go to the dentist today....
Hate that I have to vote.....

This morning reading 3 John w/the Panera ladies...love that no matter how we've done it, mostly wrong, my Grands will see it as pretty NORMAL having people live with them.....that that tension will be NORMAL to them.
So a day of LOVE overpowering hate.....kind of teary today in the being overpowered I guess...me being more hateful than not








3 John