Job 6-8; Acts 12

My heart is racing this morning, excitement and fears and JOY....breakfast w/a young friend can do that. Sharing hearts and dreams and fears and passions.....sharing passion trusting she hears without taking any of it on, a voice to fight against later, in feeling as tho I call her to the same passion. Both of us trusting the passion You instilled in us...now to get that ease(?) with others, it's not about impressing or coercing it's about sharing the Love You gave to us and trusting that in each other. And in not knowing how, in screwing up over and over, humbly accepting Your Grace maybe it gets...easier...better....we get softer?? Seeing how it's basically me wanting my own way and being ashamed/forgiven...softer and humbler...vulnerable??

Job 6: 14 When desperate people give up on God Almighty, their friends, at least should stick with them.
And then in Acts 12....Peter rescued by God

I am not that friend. I come up to you and if I come against a desire for help, a willingness to look inside and move I stick...and if what I percieve as self pity and a lack of movement.....I don't stick. And here I hear that IS my role, IF my passion is Christ and knowing how You save why do I not?? an unwillingness to be inconvenienced, to give up my time and God only knows how much time that would be.....and yet You are the one who saves and my role is to wait with them...being Still with them. Being still and knowing KNOWING that YOU are God......this sounds really hard Abba.....really really hard.

'and what makes you think any of this is easy?'