Daniel 7 & 8; Psalm 137; Luke 4

Dan wrote me a vision letter last nite...casting vision for me of what a life of my not having a job could look like....it doesn't feel like I won't be working, it just seems as tho I won't have a job to go to and that feels weird.....
The ideas flowing through my brain are unchallenged......am I afraid to put them out there, so I put them out there here and hope and pray and try to live vulnerably enough that if someone asks i will be able to answer.....not timid and not offputtingly ......simply honestly..vulnerably humbly answer....but since I never have maybe I am dreaming......
Dan and I have been praying about this...actively pursuing economically such a decision. To be able to be available to women....hurting women.....working women...stay at home women...seeking women.....lost women.....and what the hell does that even look like??? maybe we're just crazy, maybe I am.....but his vision letter....moved me deeply....our journey's seeking God...following Christ...asking the Holy Spirit to..to ....to....guide us begging HELP to follow.....has made our life, our marriage, our family...messier and yet richer than we ever dreamed 34 years ago......how to help people seek to, surrender to that yearning for that mystery in their own lives.....and then the new Erwin McManus video CRAVE.......
so for a woman who tries not to dream to much I am dreaming of walking alongside people to finding the richness and risk and joy of a life in Christ.....preparing future generations for whatever comes.....we cannot give away what we don't have and IF we have a relationship w/Christ and rest in that profound mystery, understanding that a life is meant to be given away.......what could future generations look like, because I believe it could get worse alot worse....??

Luke 4: Jesus answered, "It is written: Worship the Lord your God and serve him only"
To help people....walk with them...wrestle with them to get to this TRUTH...oh boy Abba hanging on and praying to follow wherever You lead.