Jeremiah 50 & 51; 3 John 1

I wish I had someone to ask me about my journey....I write here because I don't. I know my fault and yet I don't know how to change, to be different, to be approachable......so I write here and share my heart.....and it's not that I am lonely all the time....in being curious about others there is much interaction. I think of the people in LA...Dara saying all of them looking for someone to listen to them, to connect with, her familiarity with the loneliness there and I wonder how prevalent it is in other places. I know in LA there is a mindset of having to DO so much in order to MAKE things happen, so does that add to their loneliness??
Here in the Midwest a mindset of getting ahead or maybe simply staying afloat....wanting so much for their families.....at least that was mine years ago...wanting them to be successful...and now...now all I want is for each of them to Know Christ and engage in THAT journey....
I wonder how to start more DG groups, engaging people with Your Word, trusting that in THAT engagement there will be movement...been praying for years for a Holy Spirit movment.....movement in them, in their relationship w/Christ...their marriages and families....friendships.....now how to be able to be a part of that movement...Praying and listening I guess.....I can't give away anything I don't have and in reading Jeremiah this morning there will come that time when in being broken where we seek and IF I live in knowing Your comfort maybe that offer will mean more...I don't know...just realizing more and more that Your plan for us is so far from our understanding and seeking that understanding making life much more risky and exciting.....maybe in the loneliness I am learning to lean into THAT more than anything else???? And maybe.....I will just BE more lonely and understand Your joy and comfort more??? I don't know....I don't know.....and that not knowing keeps me seeking You....dependent on Your Son...Your Spirit......dependent and soft even while being afraid.