Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Job 18; Psalm 114; Acts 27 & 28

The other gal who went to South Africa w/us came to journaling this morning....she's a believer but at her own admission has not been / not known how to pursue a relationship w/Christ through Your Word...I was so excited to have her...of course there was no reading this morning just a joyful catching up w/each other and introducing her to rest of the women who come on Tuesday mornings...must admit to a certain sadness at not being able to engage this stuff together this morning but finding out more and more Your timing is much preferable to mine.....
The phone call from Jeanne still encouraging me this morning...giving me hope....helping me to see Your time....
standing on what I believe w/out judging what someone else believes....
The story made us different characters than if we'd showed up at the ending an easier way....Donald Miller Million Miles in a Thousand Years....
the end of a matter IS better than the beginning.......
I am being made differently....passionately patiently waiting.....
moving faster than I can see because I am following You....
here I am Abba.....Jesus I am Yours....

In reading Acts, I am first struck and convicted by the 'jumping to the conclusion' first that Paul is a murderer getting his just desserts and then immediately thereafter that he is a god...my penchant for 'jumping to the conclusion'...judging a situation / person on what I see...the thinking in my discernment I can KNOW something ......

and then vs. 21-22 They said, "Nobody wrote warning us about you. And no one has shown up saying anything bad about you. But we would like very much to hear more. The only thing we know about this Christian sect is that nobody seems to have anything good to say about it." ... the conviction of being a part of what people see and don't like about Christianity....because of that 'jumping to the conclusion'...
to remembering who I was, how much I SAW without believing.....how much I heard...how much I thought I KNEW.... how little I listened or saw....
vs. Go to this people and tell them this:
"You're going to listen with your ears,
but you won't hear a word
You're going to stare with your eyes,
but you won't see a thing.
These people are blockheads!
They stick their fingers in their ears
so they won't have to listen;
They screw their eyes shut
so they won't have to look,
so they won't have to deal with me face-to-face
and let me heal them."

I am called to have the conversations...w/out expectation or demanding anything of them, filled w/HOPE have the conversations.....to love and seek to understand IN the conversations and to stand on what I believe without judging them or their beliefs...it's never been promised to me to BE easy.....but this is who You are making me.....
thank You Abba for sending Your Son and Your Spirit...help me please.....

1 comment:

MaryAnn Mease said...

tricky...still learning how to walk this thing out ..to have conversations without a judgement or preconceived plan or manipulation...oh God, YOU alone are God!

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  • Ask way more questions than offer answers.
  • Be more spontaneous and outrageous, loving with an abandon that isn't about me.
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