Jeremiah 7-9; John 13

Time w/gals this morning cool and probably needed..what I wanted tho is for us to connect w/YOU together ...I think that's probably what happened just not...never like I think....you'd think I'd just start thinking differently...funny thing tho I don't think that's as easy as I'd like to think...my 'wetness' keeps me thinking my way.....

I keep thinking about Gerhard or whatever his name was. South African giving his life to the people of the Transkei in South Africa....giving his life knowing he probably in his lifetime w/see no results...so sold out for Jesus that he is planning on spending the rest of his life telling people there of His great love, trusting You totally in and to the outcome. He only knows what it is he is supposed to do.....tell a people who don't know, about Jesus, love them because You say to....why does it sound so simple and in reality is so hard.....please help me to do what You say and leave the results to You.....

John 13: 34-35"Let me give you a new command: Love one another. In the same way I loved you, you love one another. This is how everyone will recognize that you are my disciples—when they see the love you have for each other."

crap...... Please Abba help me become more like Gerhard doing what You say because You say it not because I am looking for results.....

And then the call comes, my dear and darling SIL has breast cancer, 'the cancer' as she and her hubs call it. They are both mentally challenged, met 25 + years ago in their Sheltered Workshop been married come next May 25 years and already planning their celebration. Joe and Teresa, Teresa and Joe both of them like children, childlike in their understanding.
I wonder what they understand about 'the cancer'??
I hope and pray she knows You and Your Son more than what Catholicism hands them...I pray and I think they do....in their childlike way they know why Jesus came.....I pray so...
I pray to be curious and loving.....loving her and him even when it gets inconvenient for me...you see that's how I operate, everything is all well and good until I feel or seem to be inconvenienced.......
I pray You lead me to this Father ......to loving them w/o regard for or of outcome because You say to.....