Isaiah 40 - 42; 1 Peter 3

“Tears are words the heart can't express”
I think maybe the rest of my life is a bit weepy...??
I think maybe in the weepy is softness that allows me to hear You....???
I think the whole 'a seeking heart You never deny'....is about softness...?? w/o it what do I seek??

I don't know... I think there is a fear that never leaves...an urgency that drives....a confusion....a power in my life now that......I hear Be Still and wait and be ready....an urgency....but is that just me....just me wanting.....see I don't know.....??
I don't know.....and that I don't know keeps me soft and seeking and again...I think perhaps that is where I am supposed to be....weepy and soft and open and ready....???

1 Peter 3: 13-18 If with heart and soul you're doing good, do you think you can be stopped? Even if you suffer for it, you're still better off. Don't give the opposition a second thought. Through thick and thin, keep your hearts at attention, in adoration before Christ, your Master. Be ready to speak up and tell anyone who asks why you're living the way you are, and always with the utmost courtesy. Keep a clear conscience before God so that when people throw mud at you, none of it will stick. They'll end up realizing that they're the ones who need a bath. It's better to suffer for doing good, if that's what God wants, than to be punished for doing bad. That's what Christ did definitively: suffered because of others' sins, the Righteous One for the unrighteous ones. He went through it all—was put to death and then made alive—to bring us to God.

I wonder.......if the softness is an attention to you?? I wonder....ready to speak up not speaking up...ready to....I wonder....