Monday, February 23, 2009

Numbers 12&13; Psalm 90; Mark 2

Crap
Learning some more stuff about myself...
Praying today for softness which leads to humility w/leads to vulnerability / authenticity
After of course my initial OH CRAP

Finding out that I still come across HARSH
Feeling soft and maybe passionate but coming across HARSH and Abrupt.....

Coming across full of 'shoulds'......

And that's not it.....

It's like having been blind your whole life and you get your vision...you see things that maybe people who've always had eyes have seen but now they're not excited by them.....and I am and I 'think' that everyone will be....and then...then, maybe it DOES become they 'should' be......

So now realizing when you KNOW something you are responsible to it...and YOU...YOU wait for us to really KNOW it.......

I am responsible to living a life of LOVE because I know YOUR love. I am responsible to love and serve and be curious.......while still wanting the love and curiousity of others....You make it so simple and yet so freakin hard......WHICH if it wasn't HARD we'd figure out HOW to do it without YOU and the thing is....we can't...do it without YOU....

In Mark this morning the paralytic is forgiven...in that forgiveness he could have walked.......
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1 comment:

Milly said...

Hi back!

Oh those smack in the head moments. They sure are hard to hide from ourselves.

Good post.

February 23, 2009 at 9:50 AM

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