Numbers 14-16;Mark 3

Ahhh yes the wailing~ the complaining how Moses must of hated it, how YOU must have wanted to send them all back into slavery....Joshua and Caleb saying 'let's go' everyone else too afraid.....

Moses speaking out in protection of the GREATNESS of God....

I used to think it was in protection of 'the people'.... but he'd seen YOUR GLORY and maybe....it was in protection of THAT???

How truly frustrated Moses must have (is it of or have?) ~ their only moving when they wanted to....never following God and dying for their disobedience ~ SAVED to choose differently they didn't...couldn't....
only Joshua and Caleb allowed in~

And then the whole 'tassels' thing God's trying to help us ~ remind us to stay focused on Him alone and even that got used wrong....religion....

I have less and less answers
more and more questions
becoming softer and softer

cycle thru being scared of BEING soft
'thinking' in this softness and vulnerability I look crazy or worse yet stupid

resting THERE in YOUR protection
I KNOW Your protection

How in Mark 3 could the Pharisees remain 'hard nosed' in their religion after having had Jesus look them in the eye??
Can religion STILL be that strong of a hold on someone? Is there any religion that can be trusted? Is Christianity a religion??

It HAS to be about becoming softer and softer...
It HAS to become about not having the answers ~ just walking w/someone seeking YOU....