Psalm 40

Met with a couple last nite, just had twin boys. Adorable and alot of work. I wonder how to help someone find You in the stress of life? I wonder if I am supposed to? I wonder if I trusted YOU completely how You wouldn't work in every relationship? Met with a gal this morning, alot like me our personalities....I wonder if we could see out of our own filters what you would show us? I wonder if we trusted You in relationships rather than our own ways of relating?
Prone to wondering alot, remembering life without You and yet still living my life without trusting You completely, and this morning that makes me sad, what would it look like to live naked and surrendered abandoned totally to You.......
what would it look like IF I did, you know, TRUST You completely?

And then THIS today.....
A David Psalm 1-3 I waited and waited and waited for God.
At last he looked; finally he listened.
He lifted me out of the ditch,
pulled me from deep mud.
He stood me up on a solid rock
to make sure I wouldn't slip.
He taught me how to sing the latest God-song,
a praise-song to our God.
More and more people are seeing this:
they enter the mystery, abandoning themselves to God.
4-5 Blessed are you who give yourselves over to God,
turn your backs on the world's "sure thing," ignore what the world worships;
The world's a huge stockpile of God-wonders and God-thoughts.
Nothing and no one comes close to you!
I start talking about you, telling what I know, and quickly run out of words.
Neither numbers nor words account for you.
6 Doing something for you, bringing something to you—
that's not what you're after.
Being religious, acting pious—
that's not what you're asking for.
You've opened my ears so I can listen.
7-8 So I answered, "I'm coming.
I read in your letter what you wrote about me,
And I'm coming to the party you're throwing for me."
That's when God's Word entered my life,
became part of my very being.
9-10 I've preached you to the whole congregation,
I've kept back nothing, God—you know that.
I didn't keep the news of your ways a secret, didn't keep it to myself.
I told it all, how dependable you are, how thorough.
I didn't hold back pieces of love and truth
For myself alone. I told it all, let the congregation know the whole story.
11-12 Now God, don't hold out on me, don't hold back your passion.
Your love and truth are all that keeps me together.
When troubles ganged up on me, a mob of sins past counting,
I was so swamped by guilt I couldn't see my wayclear.
More guilt in my heart than hair on my head, so heavy the guilt that my heart gave out.
13-15 Soften up, God, and intervene; hurry and get me some help,
So those who are trying to kidnap my soul will be embarrassed and lose face,
So anyone who gets a kick out of making me miserable will be heckled and disgraced,
So those who pray for my ruin will be booed and jeered without mercy.
16-17 But all who are hunting for you— oh, let them sing and be happy.
Let those who know what you're all about tell the world you're great and not quitting.
And me? I'm a mess. I'm nothing and have nothing: make something of me.
You can do it; you've got what it takes— but God, don't put it off.

so today ......no guilt....just naked awareness.....and in the awareness comes many tears, pain for others.....am I to sing and be happy when so many around are suffering ?