1 Timothy 4

Sitting at Panera this morning once again recognizing the 'urgency', an urgency that comes up in me regularly. An urgency to see everyone in heaven.....recognizing that the urgency is not attractional and praying , wondering how to live such a life as to draw others to the journey.....

Msg. vs. 11-14 Get the word out. Teach all these things. And don't let anyone put you down because you're young. Teach believers with your life: by word, by demeanor, by love, by faith, by integrity. Stay at your post reading Scripture, giving counsel, teaching. And that special gift of ministry you were given when the leaders of the church laid hands on you and prayed—keep that dusted off and in use.
15-16 Cultivate these things. Immerse yourself in them. The people will all see you mature right before their eyes! Keep a firm grasp on both your character and your teaching. Don't be diverted. Just keep at it. Both you and those who hear you will experience salvation.

Cultivate these things.....I have no teaching gifts, struggle daily with how to speak....what to say, how to say it.....there's no trust, no faith in those moments, it's me trying all sorts of ways to BE different....

Knowing that as a sheep of YOUR pasture I am protected and in that protection, that love, love others,all others.....by faith (a gift).....I don't know and in the urgency I generally over think....so today.....immersed in YOUR love.....see what happens.

Friday's reading... vs. 17 If you understand what I'm telling you, act like it—and live a blessed life.