Numbers 5 & 6; Psalm 22; Acts 26

Paul's experience made him an 'obedient believer' right away.....

this new journey with the 'i will's' is helping me, not sure obedience was ever my strong suit.......
didn't want to get in 'trouble' so i did everything in my power to be good.....but to listen to anyone long enough, be coached into being ????....i didn't, couldn't, wouldn't.....to busy w/my own agenda to listen to anyone elses.
never did sports, uncoachable........
just alot of regret in this...alot of shame both legitimate and illegitimate.......
so now, as i read Your word and listen for Your desire for me to live differently than i ever have and pray to BE responsively obedient....i wonder if it can happen??
so the story of Paul stubborn and prideful becoming humbler and softer and dependent...encourages me daily.......well some days i get annoyed at Your insistence at being in every part of my life and then that annoyance turns to humble joy...it Is all about You and that's a really good thing.....You won't, haven't given up on me and i will remember that .