i really hate stuff like this, it always sounds like a good idea and i'm always 'on board' and then the fear sets in , the pressure of interacting and putting my foot in it...i will have to head down, do this. prayerfully approaching each task, not hiding from it or the event. i want emma to enjoy this and to not be afraid in social situations, i don't want this fear and desire to hide to rule her.... so with her as my guest i am praying to not hide myself. I can't, I will not....call it what it is, this desire to hide is a lack of trust of faith....i will not hide.
it's weird and i can feel ashamed to be an adult and be this afraid, ever since seeing how inadequate i am at entertaining or big events i just look to avoid them...perhaps this is the 'don't hide' i hear/heard? hmmmm if a life of faith is a bungee jump i must be on a platform somewhere right now.....
i sound just like the israelites, freed and as soon as trouble comes crying out for what was, for me and them slavery and God's response through Moses....ex 14:
14 God will fight the battle for you.
And you? You keep your mouths shut!"
show up
do what needs done and stop your whinin.....
praying for spiritual awakening, wondering about an Acts 2 'church' and in reading it this morning...wondering wth...........???? i think the talk about being 'drunk' in the Spirit and prophecy, words trigger something in me born of fear of charismatic churches.....but the last 2 verses.....those are attractive and hopeful. see i am so like the israelites wanting to SEE and feast on what i want and You very clearly have a way it's gonna be done and ask for my obedience.....to make that jump and see how Your way, trusting You is way better.
ex 16: 46-47 They followed a daily discipline of worship in the Temple followed by meals at home, every meal a celebration, exuberant and joyful, as they praised God. People in general liked what they saw. Every day their number grew as God added those who were saved.
do what needs done and stop your whinin.....
praying for spiritual awakening, wondering about an Acts 2 'church' and in reading it this morning...wondering wth...........???? i think the talk about being 'drunk' in the Spirit and prophecy, words trigger something in me born of fear of charismatic churches.....but the last 2 verses.....those are attractive and hopeful. see i am so like the israelites wanting to SEE and feast on what i want and You very clearly have a way it's gonna be done and ask for my obedience.....to make that jump and see how Your way, trusting You is way better.
ex 16: 46-47 They followed a daily discipline of worship in the Temple followed by meals at home, every meal a celebration, exuberant and joyful, as they praised God. People in general liked what they saw. Every day their number grew as God added those who were saved.
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