Ezekiel 38 & 39; Psalm 145; Revelation 20

I am tired of wishing I was made another way. Tired enough, frustrated enough to believe Romans 4?? I certainly hope so. Today, to NOT be stubborn..to look at all my reactions and decisions and see there a chance to be awed by You.....to react out of who I believe/know You are and not how I feel. And if Romans 4 is true...I will because of You, Your Spirit in me....

And in Ez it says there is gonna be trouble, peoples coming against you/us and in that day You will be shown good and people will know You are God. It's not about me or my successes and my calmoring for them is worthless and sinful...stubborn....disobedient. I am Yours and for Your Glory...when will I get that, I mean really get that. Oh yeah in heaven :) and here and now I seek You and Your heart over and over, in Grace, accepting Your Grace when I fail and keep on embarassing myself with looking for MY successes, my relationships...my affirmations.....what an amazing God You are and that YOU love us...love me I am praying to be obedient to whatever...wherever You take me today.

just for me to remember...after posting this got an email getting news I would have rather gotten differently......and then hubs calls to let me know of a song he heard today and I am crying, we pray point each other to You and I go to listen to the song.....

to react differently....help me Abba Help ME
http://Rebecca-St-James-Be-Still-And-Know--mp3-download.kohit.net/_/334878&id=334878

realizing yet again how ya' just have to be careful what you ask Him for. Seriously He is that into you, your life and just knows....