nothing cute or attractive about it and it never changes.......and it breaks Your heart....when is that realization going to break mine??
I walked around on a freakin broken foot for 3 -4 weeks out of stubbornness......sliding that broken hurting foot into that boot felt soooo good. I do the same thing w/my Abba, knowing there is something I need to take to You or calm down about or ask You about and I don't, I stubbornly keep doing all the stuff I do.......and then when I do, turn heart and mind and soul to You there is this relief.....
vulnerability = trusting = responsively obedient = relief
I don't know if my math is right.....
I just know seeing my Daddy, my earthly Daddy sitting in his chair trapped by his stubbornness was frightening. Trapped by his thinking, desperately wanting to be connected with but unwilling to make any connections....past hurts blocking trying...in the past people (ie me) disrespecting his opinions....... Stubbornly fighting against the connections people try to make......lonely....broken and stubborn .....My Mom says she sees an angry old man...I just see broken and stubborn.......to love him as You lead.
Ezekiel.....I am responsible to say what I think, vulnerably, humbly say it...I will have the conversation You know I am dreading Abba....with Your guidance and me following.
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