Jeremiah 33 & 34; Psalm 74; 1 John 5

Back from LA and while it was a great visit, time with my daugther so good, so amazing to love her.... I was so glad to be home....It's a different city, running on an energy that while palpable...I am not quite sure I trust....It's about getting what you want and in order to do that you run, here, there...everywhere, trying to line it up and out and......it seems you have to DO all this to get...to MAKE HAPPEN what you want. I get lost in it and fall into doing it with them. I get lost in thinking maybe they're right...but in my heart I keep asking where is faith and trust and......so I love LA and yet I hate it.

So what do I read right out of the gate this AM.....Jer. 33: 1 While Jeremiah was still confined in the courtyard of the guard, the word of the LORD came to him a second time: 2 "This is what the LORD says, he who made the earth, the LORD who formed it and established it—the LORD is his name: 3 'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.' 4 For this is what the LORD, the God of Israel, says about the houses in this city and the royal palaces of Judah that have been torn down to be used against the siege ramps and the sword 5 in the fight with the Babylonians : 'They will be filled with the dead bodies of the men I will slay in my anger and wrath. I will hide my face from this city because of all its wickedness.

hearing it is my job to continuously be that voice to Dara and Juno...reminding them of Jesus and Your call on their lives...on all our lives.....it seems so, like running your head over and over into a brick wall....saying things that sound so simple and obvious NOW....but before I didn't want to hear, couldn't hear for hearing all my own thots....now to live a life of GRACE and LOVE and perseverance......probably sounding...
I don't know anything anymore and yet in that not knowing I come over and over back to what I do know...that Jesus died to save me.....
crap how do I live that without sounding.......
I can't care how it sounds I can only deliver it in LOVE and relentlessly keep on looking to You myself....not judging anyone.....not worrying....praying......not saying everything......remembering how little I know and yet what I do know.......

And then 1 John 5: 18 We know that anyone born of God does not continue to sin; the one who was born of God keeps him safe, and the evil one cannot harm him. 19 We know that we are children of God, and that the whole world is under the control of the evil one. 20 We know also that the Son of God has come and has given us understanding, so that we may know him who is true. And we are in him who is true—even in his Son Jesus Christ. He is the true God and eternal life.
21 Dear children, keep yourselves from idols.

....hold on...hold on.....noone said it was gonna be easy...

loving and trusting YOU...praying for them raising a beautiful new creation of Yours there....she is a beautiful woman and wants so much to follow You.....comfort her heart Abba.....or maybe I should pray do whatever it takes to bring her to Your comfort.....to rest...rest...in Your Love....and this new little one....so excited to meet him or her..so excited....I wish I were able to convey this love without sounding so darn weird...I write here so maybe in actual words meeting someone I won't.....