Plans without putting them in concrete.....
a trip to LA....multiple trips.....
vacation.................?
wedding in Colorado...............
South Africa........
mentoring / discipling women....
being in the delivery room.........
living counterintuitively...
There is much swimming around in this brain, this heart......hoping and giving each hope to You and learning that in the giving there is much freedom.....
I love LA...I really do, to visit. Stepping off the airplane you are hit w/an almost physical blast of energy....I do believe it is a place of influence. This trip to help my pregnant daughter wrap her brain around a nursery, what a blessing...what a freaking miraculous blessing....I am a fan of all things Hollywood, have been forever....dreamt forever about going there (and now this is like my 5th trip).....TV, movies, celebrities.....I believe we are a media driven society and that we can influence people in and through the industry. Now am I happy my Grandchild will grow up there...not so much, it's so far away..... I understand why and hope and dream mom and dad will be so caught up in You that they will not fall into other traps....I believe in You those traps are absolutely ineffective and hollow threats, without You probably as deadly as any around. It is an influential city and a very lonely one.....So how do I pray.....I pray that You are so real to followers of Christ there that they in living vital, risky lives there influencing in that vitality and risk, more and more to Your Love......
Vacation....I don't know Abba, I think I need one......but as in most things I could be so totally wrong about that....
Wedding in Colorado.....flying w/in-laws....I so desire to BE servant hearted to not worry about what everyone else is doing and just .........love and serve them....and YOU know how much of You I am gonna need....
South Africa...Dan's return in July for 2 weeks, how jealous I am. Not incapacitatingly so....I am praying that if that is going to have traction in our lives he feels it stronger and stronger. I am praying about so much over there, who's already there and who desires to go. Praying for hearts so devoted to You that the things that happen there, here and in and to people takes them/us deeper and further and riskier that we ever dreamed.....
mentoring / discipling women.....what does that look like Abba? How can someone who's never been mentored be trusted? How can I get past that this is what I have always wanted to do and follow wherever You might lead? How can I give away this incredible journey???
being in the delivery room......oh to be wanted there is incredible...this child has not wanted us too close to any big moment....and now to be wanted there and to see the impossiblity of it...ahh what do I do with this Abba? Praying and hoping and trying to not to get demanding about it...:)
Holidays w/a new Grand....Wow...just Wow...last year convincing ourselves, well it's not gonna happen anymore, the sharing of holidays with our kids, giving them the freedom to be where they need to be and then BAM looks ...well......heck it's only May who knows how it's gonna look....hoping without expecting anything.....
living counterintuitively....really all the above I think about differently. I don't know how this dependence on You has come about. There's really nothing hard in my life.....we have grown in our faith....to watch my husband...I mean this was a man who was never going to travel out of these United States, watching him prepare for a 2nd trip to South Africa...18 hours on a plane?? We give like we always prayed to and we pray to give more.....that's weird, I've always been pretty selfish, still am, You've just provided us w/funds to give..how........we / I am awed this morning Abba by You in our lives...by YOU in the lives of the people around me...by You awed and so very grateful.....
2 Thess. 2 Stand Firm
13 But we ought always to thank God for you, brothers loved by the Lord, because from the beginning God chose you to be saved through the sanctifying work of the Spirit and through belief in the truth. 14 He called you to this through our gospel, that you might share in the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ. 15 So then, brothers, stand firm and hold to the teachings we passed on to you, whether by word of mouth or by letter.
16 May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, 17 encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word.
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