2 Samuel 7; 1 Chronicles 17; Psalm 2; Matthew 20

2 Samuel 7: 25 "And now, LORD God, keep forever the promise you have made concerning your servant and his house. Do as you promised, 26 so that your name will be great forever. Then men will say, 'The LORD Almighty is God over Israel!' And the house of your servant David will be established before you.

ahh David seems to so 'get it'......I know another big screw up is coming but here in this moment he seems to be so humble and recieves You and Your word, Your promises so succinctly.....

we live upside down and Jesus came to right us up? The things we believe after years of rubbing up against people and our own thots...and You, Jesus, Your Holy Spirit is out to shake them up....we take Matt. 20: 24 When the ten heard about this, they were indignant with the two brothers. 25 Jesus called them together and said, "You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their high officials exercise authority over them. 26 Not so with you. Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, 27 and whoever wants to be first must be your slave— 28 just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.".....and turn that, dirty that up into being doormats....something we can't/won't do.....we have to stand up for ourselves and the whole time You're asking for a knowing in our hearts of You that makes us WANT to be the least....I don't know how to do that Abba......I pitifully continue to try and appear to have it all together and fight for my place.....what the heck huh? Gonna end up crazy as a loon trying to balance that which you never promised balance to......and yet the alternative.....really REALLY believing all that You say makes me feel crazy now......makes me hopeless and defeated before I ever even bend to trying it......to allowing You to do something different in me....I'm just scared nah...I'm just stubborn...so Abba please break this stubborn heart, but do it gently....see stubborn to the freakin end and wanting to know what it will look like.....