Genesis 20 - 22; Luke 8

Woke up w/this thot from Primal by Mark Batterson rolling around my head and heart : 'It's easier to act like a Christian than to react like one.' My reactions certainly reveal my self protection....I am a liar at heart. My reaction even in jest is to blame someone else.....will I always and forever BE the snake sleeping in the bottom of the basket? That thot horrifies me and takes me to doubt and self protection even further, thinking I could be someone You love and then I remember You don't love because of who we are or what we do You love simply because of who You are. That thot wrecks me this morning and softens my heart to receiving more and more GRACE...at least I hope so. To think I will always and forever react and be the snake ....I guess takes me deeper and deeper, further and further towards seeking You and Your comfort alone. I really thot that I would be more befriendable on the journey but more and more I feel an aloneness.......what IF i reacted differently, less self protectively all around.
And yesterday's words resonate....14 Is anything too hard for the LORD ?

Abraham, father of faith didn't always react...right or according to his faith or maybe the truth of it is he did and every time his faith grew? Now tho, our righteousness doesn't come from obedience it comes from Jesus, His Spirit in us and obedience comes from love. In Christ we are chosen, how to react in that love? Not self protective....

And then yesterday Sarah laughed and here today 21 vs. 11 God says to Abraham 'listen to her'....Abba Your GRACE with her.......(stunned realization) ....Your GRACE with me....Wow...Your GRACE how can I continue to forget that??

Abraham in all his previous failures his faith grew....faith took him up the mountain.

To react in all choice and situation, relationships.....not act...w/Your Spirit things can be different...because of who YOU are...and when I fail, You don't condemn me...Your GRACE says try again....