1 Timonthy 1-4

Just back from Los Angeles a great place to visit for sure but home is best. Emma was an amazing traveling companion and praying this morning when everything isn't revolving around her she does ok.....daughter and husband living there I vascilate between proud of her living in California and judging her for doing so.....for even considering raising kids there...I know I know I'm wrong and judgmental and not trusting God ......that's it isn't it and there's no BUT involved....You are in charge and I am to lean into and trust Your will.....I want her / them here....to want what YOU want that's the journey for me, not them.....or mine for me and them for theirs....to want what You want MORE than anything....

There are no BUT'S with YOU and I am never far from one.....I don't know how to live for you alone BUT I want to.....I want to want what you want more than anything...I want my daughter and hubs in LA to know Your love so deeply that living in that lonely place they know a peace that will sustain them and they won't have to look to each other and in that PEACE ....ahh crap just me not living in the peace myself.....1 Tim 3: 6-10 You've been raised on the Message of the faith and have followed sound teaching. Now pass on this counsel to the followers of Jesus there, and you'll be a good servant of Jesus. Stay clear of silly stories that get dressed up as religion. Exercise daily in God—no spiritual flabbiness, please! Workouts in the gymnasium are useful, but a disciplined life in God is far more so, making you fit both today and forever. You can count on this. Take it to heart. This is why we've thrown ourselves into this venture so totally. We're banking on the living God, Savior of all men and women, especially believers.
11-14 Get the word out. Teach all these things. And don't let anyone put you down because you're young. Teach believers with your life: by word, by demeanor, by love, by faith, by integrity. Stay at your post reading Scripture, giving counsel, teaching. And that special gift of ministry you were given when the leaders of the church laid hands on you and prayed—keep that dusted off and in use.
15-16 Cultivate these things. Immerse yourself in them. The people will all see you mature right before their eyes! Keep a firm grasp on both your character and your teaching. Don't be diverted. Just keep at it. Both you and those who hear you will experience salvation.

That's why I journal here....lay out the scriptures and how I wrestle w/them and You.....It's true you can't give away what you don't have .....but now....see another BUT....trust YOU.