I envy people who know exactly what to do...what I am finding out is they just operate like they know.....and I respect that.I don't know what to DO....I wiffle waffle and piss and moan and wrestle against.....
I am married to one of those who operates like they know what to do and even tho he's taught me he doesn't and he doesn't even want to anymore...I place him in the position over and over to make the decisions and then I fight them and him and...
I don't want to anymore Abba....
I need Your Grace this morning Abba, not simply a covering, an infusion......
I need a willingness to be in the decision...
I need a clarity that I don't naturally have...
I need an obedience for Your Glory....not to be seen as responsible and obedient....
I need a willingness to be in the decision...
I need a clarity that I don't naturally have...
I need an obedience for Your Glory....not to be seen as responsible and obedient....
I need GUTS Abba to DO what You say Do...
I have prayed for 2 years to live in RISK, picturing I guess what that might look like and now that it doesn't.....I FIGHT....
I fight against and for what I want...
I don't know how Abba to fight for what you might want....lived in incapable for so very long...lived in other people's evaluations....what if I only looked for Yours...I've felt the pain of seeing myself for who I really am and felt GRACE in that as well...to live only for Your approval tho...I don't know how Abba...I don't know how....
1 Corinthians 12
Spiritual Gifts 1-3 What I want to talk about now is the various ways God's Spirit gets worked into our lives. This is complex and often mis-understood, but I want you to be informed and knowledgeable. Remember how you were when you didn't know God, led from one phony god to another, never knowing what you were doing, just doing it because everybody else did it? It's different in this life. God wants us to use our intelligence, to seek to understand as well as we can. For instance, by using your heads, you know perfectly well that the Spirit of God would never prompt anyone to say "Jesus be damned!" Nor would anyone be inclined to say "Jesus is Master!" without the insight of the Holy Spirit.
4-11 God's various gifts are handed out everywhere; but they all originate in God's Spirit. God's various ministries are carried out everywhere; but they all originate in God's Spirit. God's various expressions of power are in action everywhere; but God himself is behind it all. Each person is given something to do that shows who God is: Everyone gets in on it, everyone benefits. All kinds of things are handed out by the Spirit, and to all kinds of people! The variety is wonderful:
I fight against and for what I want...
I don't know how Abba to fight for what you might want....lived in incapable for so very long...lived in other people's evaluations....what if I only looked for Yours...I've felt the pain of seeing myself for who I really am and felt GRACE in that as well...to live only for Your approval tho...I don't know how Abba...I don't know how....
1 Corinthians 12
Spiritual Gifts 1-3 What I want to talk about now is the various ways God's Spirit gets worked into our lives. This is complex and often mis-understood, but I want you to be informed and knowledgeable. Remember how you were when you didn't know God, led from one phony god to another, never knowing what you were doing, just doing it because everybody else did it? It's different in this life. God wants us to use our intelligence, to seek to understand as well as we can. For instance, by using your heads, you know perfectly well that the Spirit of God would never prompt anyone to say "Jesus be damned!" Nor would anyone be inclined to say "Jesus is Master!" without the insight of the Holy Spirit.
4-11 God's various gifts are handed out everywhere; but they all originate in God's Spirit. God's various ministries are carried out everywhere; but they all originate in God's Spirit. God's various expressions of power are in action everywhere; but God himself is behind it all. Each person is given something to do that shows who God is: Everyone gets in on it, everyone benefits. All kinds of things are handed out by the Spirit, and to all kinds of people! The variety is wonderful:
2 comments:
I love the honesty. Because. . . .I don't know. . . but I keep holding on.
oooo good post
yes...in my insecurity and fears of being wrong or rejected i have handed the decisions off to others...and...just like you said..the minute it goes off the track i know God told me it should be on i wail and cry and make a scene
and now, i can hear the Voice say "well...i told you to do it first..."
gulp.
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