Job 30; Psalm 120; Galatians 3 & 4

Reading Job....
Lament = statement of the facts of a situation
Complaint = personal commmentary on the facts
I don't know...
Job does ok until he starts telling God what's what....in the lamenting we're OK? In the complaining we're not...In lamenting we can still see You...Jesus....in complaining it's all about ourselves and we can't see You.....not mine to judge anyone else but to KNOW for future situations the difference....??

I want to lament familial constraints right now..the possibility of being seperated from my husband so he can go and fulfill .....
sacrifice...
I hear that word and don't want to....
I seek my comfort over any sacrifice.....
I lean way more into complaining than living in sacrifice and lament....how can someone see if what you do matches with what you say without proximity....crap

Galatians 3: 1 You crazy Galatians! Did someone put a hex on you? Have you taken leave of your senses? Something crazy has happened, for it's obvious that you no longer have the crucified Jesus in clear focus in your lives. His sacrifice on the cross was certainly set before you clearly enough.
2-4Let me put this question to you: How did your new life begin? Was it by working your heads off to please God? Or was it by responding to God's Message to you? Are you going to continue this craziness? For only crazy people would think they could complete by their own efforts what was begun by God. If you weren't smart enough or strong enough to begin it, how do you suppose you could perfect it? Did you go through this whole painful learning process for nothing? It is not yet a total loss, but it certainly will be if you keep this up!
5-6 Answer this question: Does the God who lavishly provides you with his own presence, his Holy Spirit, working things in your lives you could never do for yourselves, does he do these things because of your strenuous moral striving or because you trust him to do them in you? Don't these things happen among you just as they happened with Abraham? He believed God, and that act of belief was turned into a life that was right with God.
7-8 Is it not obvious to you that persons who put their trust in Christ (not persons who put their trust in the law!) are like Abraham: children of faith? It was all laid out beforehand in Scripture that God would set things right with non-Jews by faith. Scripture anticipated this in the promise to Abraham: "All nations will be blessed in you."

So do we both up and move back to Iowa....crap....I hope not Abba BUT more than that I hope to not miss what it is You are taking us to......guide us to seeking the counsel of others to a decision we can live with.....a decision ...crap...a decision based on what is best for hubs and his family...kinda changes the perspective....not making it any easier decision just one not so much about me.....hmmm crap

So go the cemetary...my thing is to argue w/You and metaphorically 'kick a few gravestones'....in the kicking it becomes more and more clear....'move to Creston'....heck like Abraham in my mind surrender this 'biggest fear'...to You.....and then I pick up my book Donald Miller's A Million Miles in a Thousand Years and read..."I knew I needed an inciting incident, something to make me jump into my story."....crap
If my story is to finish in Creston Iowa that sounds to me like death BUT what if it is my story..at least we move in that direction...perhaps Dan going on ahead and seeing if/when/how the house would sell....emotions flooding through me but there is a sense of YOU speaking to me and the comfort that brings even in the suck......
Wow Abba...
'the point of the journey is to want what God wants more than anything.'......
crap . crap and double crap