Challenge / Matthew 17-19

He doesn't love us because we are so lovable, but because He is so loving.....
In fact, when you rebuild your marriage w/agape as its foundation, then the friendship and romantic aspects of your love become more endearing than ever before.....
Demonstrate love to them for the sheer joy of being their partner in marriage....

agape =
1.the love of God or Christ for humankind.
2.the love of Christians for other persons, corresponding to the love of God for humankind.
3.unselfish love of one person for another without sexual implications; brotherly love.

The new foundation, this journey in Christ for us (Dan and I) makes this easier than I would imagine...maybe not the finding something to DO for him.... but when I find it I want to do it out of that joy....he is a joy to be married to and that this has happened I am forever grateful to You....this joy comes from seeking You and Your will before the love of my husband, him doing the same and that we get to, are doing this together absolutely blows me away....That You have become important to both of us...that we have a relationship w/You alive and growing....it's been work and yet like w/any relationship the work proves worth it....to look for You and Your will everywhere....to desire to spend time w/You first thing in the morning....I don't fully know how this has happened and yet that it has makes me joyfilled even when my face floods w/tears....fighting against everything, being called to surrender and fighting....and in the tears, the losing, the GRACE......

The whole of these 3 chapters in Matthew ringing so true this day....in learning about myself, seeing my need for grace and forgiveness it makes such sense. The whole of being unable to DO any of it without you....the whole of this being what life is about when I want so badly what I want still mostly..there are days Abba where the thought of wanting what You want MORE makes so much sense...not easy, never easy but more and more the thot of THAT rings true...
Matt. 19: 11-12 But Jesus said, "Not everyone is mature enough to live a married life. It requires a certain aptitude and grace. Marriage isn't for everyone. Some, from birth seemingly, never give marriage a thought. Others never get asked—or accepted. And some decide not to get married for kingdom reasons. But if you're capable of growing into the largeness of marriage, do it."
I married not knowing that largeness and have been blessed...so very blessed to be on this journey w/my husband and now all we want to do is 'give it away'...IF that's in Creston....so be it Abba.....because the thot of missing Your will is worse than getting what I want....