Zechariah 4 - 6; Luke 12

Sitting around a fire last nite and w/coffee this morning....people, myself included want to BE known and You...You call us, in the knowing of us, to seek out and KNOW others....You call us to reach out and make the effort when all we really want is someone to MAKE the effort for / with us...myself included.....so I come here and revel in Your knowing me and in that revelation and feeling convicted and forgiven I....I....I just want to give it away....to introduce others to THIS...this coming to KNOW You and in THAT BEING KNOWN in a way that blows me away and keeps me in the journey to seek to KNOW others...to love others....but sometimes still the yearning to BE known gets in the way........but then...but then...
I recieve the gift from my friends....I have pushed and pulled and prodded them and now.....they're curious....they're cautiously curious about our going to South Africa...about our letting people live with us.... and I am excited and praying that my excitement doesn't scare them away....that I don't NOT have them over to my house because I am afraid of how it looks...that I don't just FREAK them out....that I just quietly HERE do that...over and over again....the freak out, the tears...the whatever it is you call this.....
Luke 12: 29-32"What I'm trying to do here is get you to relax, not be so preoccupied with getting so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep yourself in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Don't be afraid of missing out. You're my dearest friends! The Father wants to give you the very kingdom itself.
33-34"Be generous. Give to the poor. Get yourselves a bank that can't go bankrupt, a bank in heaven far from bankrobbers, safe from embezzlers, a bank you can bank on. It's obvious, isn't it? The place where your treasure is, is the place you will most want to be, and end up being.
and it doesn't stop there, there's always more to ponder...to wrestle with..surrender to...
49"I have come to bring fire on the earth, and how I wish it were already kindled! 50 But I have a baptism to undergo, and how distressed I am until it is completed! 51 Do you think I came to bring peace on earth? No, I tell you, but division. 52 From now on there will be five in one family divided against each other, three against two and two against three. 53 They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law."

You never said it was gonna be easy....