Daniel 7 & 8; Psalm 137; Luke 4

You know how they say what annoys you in others is probably something that you should look at in yourself...
that's always read true to me...always been true enough to make me uncomfortable and hesitant to really I mean REALLY look at it and yet...true enough to keep me wondering...and ...piss me off regularly....
So people like perry noble and steven furtick really annoy me...
so much that I delete tweets or posts from time to time...and then I realizethey annoy me because I want to be that bold, that passionate, that positive about You and Your movements in and around me.....
or maybe it's that they just don't care who is annoyed by their passion...they don't manage or care what anyone else thinks about them...
or maybe my annoyance is simply my problem and others annoyance w/me then, is theirs...

and when I am not annoyed I am inspired not by them but by what is happening around them...the people coming to Christ....
inspired and longing to live RISKY and passionate......I don't know much but what I know is sure growing in me a passion....

Daniel 8: 16-17 "Then I heard a man's voice from over by the Ulai Canal calling out, 'Gabriel, tell this man what is going on. Explain the vision to him.' He came up to me, but when he got close I became terrified and fell facedown on the ground.
17-18 "He said, 'Understand that this vision has to do with the time of the end.' As soon as he spoke, I fainted, my face in the dirt. But he picked me up and put me on my feet.

Been hearing this alot...falling facedown in worship.....I worship arrogantly?? Perhaps I am not called to BE passionate but more humble...more contemplative...when will I know that it's Him in the passion...??

See this is the ambivalence I live in...the confusion...the lack of clarity...
the....image management.....worrying more about what the passion looks like rather than simply living IN the passion...worrying about being called insane (my Dad did...some years back ask me ..if maybe I was insane...or crazy)...now how to shed that ....love him and BE who you made me....or maybe not.....

I don't know....going into South Africa...taking care of Teresa maybe it's best I don't know......
maybe I am following......
maybe I am becoming who You made me to be....
maybe.....