Isaiah 63 & 64; Psalm 107; John 2

Fatigued and disappointed and coming here, to, spending time in Your Word to be fed, filled up...totally using You Father to rejuvinate me......bringing absolutely nothing to the table...no worship or joy or gratitude.....coming really really empty and lonely and disappointed saying HELP ME.....sat w/a woman last nite filled w/anger and fear w/walls 100 feet tall and felt sorry for her to be living so protected and this morning those walls appear to be attractive, I don't want to live behind walls, thinking I/working so hard to 'control things'...to get what I want but in all honestly like my son in law pointed out my 'wetness' is hard to see....so in seeing it I want to run away again....in fatigue I want to hide and build my own protection...in fear and shame I want....

I need to sit here w/You and find a way to live without anything but desiring You.....and in the sadness this morning I come.....

Psalm 107: 10-16 Some of you were locked in a dark cell,

cruelly confined behind bars,

Punished for defying God's Word,

for turning your back on the High God's counsel—

A hard sentence, and your hearts so heavy,

and not a soul in sight to help.

Then you called out to God in your desperate condition;

he got you out in the nick of time.

He led you out of your dark, dark cell,

broke open the jail and led you out.

So thank God for his marvelous love,

for his miracle mercy to the children he loves;

He shattered the heavy jailhouse doors,

he snapped the prison bars like matchsticks!

I'm free and covered w/Your Grace not mine to simply admire but to be DRENCHED in....Drenched and drenching.....it's only about pointing people to You, to Jesus....that's all it's about......

John 2:23-25 During the time he was in Jerusalem, those days of the Passover Feast, many people noticed the signs he was displaying and, seeing they pointed straight to God, entrusted their lives to him. But Jesus didn't entrust his life to them. He knew them inside and out, knew how untrustworthy they were. He didn't need any help in seeing right through them.