Isaiah 29-31; James 1

I thot I was relationally drained..
That wasn't it

Great meal and conversation w/2 folk followed by, up to 11pm with more and then this morning up and 6 am and great conversation and

It's all about Him that's what makes the difference....

The meal last nite was about being curious about new people and they were so open to talking about You and the journey.....they were desperate to or have been desperat......no... they were excited about people challenging them to something new.....scared but faithfully excited...
challengable....

then being given permission to really ask the hard questions, being asked the hard questions....staying up till 11...wayyyy past my bedtime because of You and wanting to give away what we've found...not having a clue how but desperate to find out....
it's too amazing... to not want to...when you see what, experience what You do/ have done in lives, in marriages...
how can you not....
and yet it becomes about the wrong stuff so quickly.....

and then this morning...w/my daughter and daughter in law...just asking each other tough questions.....sharing the confusion...the depth of desire.....

it's about YOU...not about Shoal Creek or a ministry.....it's about living our lives AS A Ministry....

ahh....Father please help us to GIVE THIS AWAY......this being a journey of epic proportions...filled w/twists and turns and ups and downs.....filled w/confusion and excitement and ......a life of faith...of risk...or depth and desire....of love and grace and mercy recieved and given.....please help all of us lean deeply into You and in our inadequacy and failures turn over and over to Him who saves......trusting Your Spirit in the journey....I mean the alternative feels like....seems like.... to become an accomplice to watching frogs cook ....or at least this morning in my confusion...that's what it feels like....For the last 2 weeks I have thot about cooking frogs…you know the old wives tale or joke about how you put them in a pot of water and slowly turn up the heat and they never try to escape because they don’t notice until they’re cooked….thinking how we are like those frogs…not noticing….being cooked…how I just watch the cooking because I am too scared to point out….and then yesterday I read this...

And then I hear here at work that one of our own in the business office has incurable cancer….she’s going to die…and I listen to a guy say, a guy who talks to me about ….anyway he says…….’lift her up in your thots to whomever you pray to’…..what??

And it created in me a sense of urgency that I don’t quite know what to do with….sooo I don't know Father....You got it all I know....I just want people to know You and.....

Is. 29 : 9-10 Drug yourselves so you feel nothing.
Blind yourselves so you see nothing. Get drunk, but not on wine.
Black out, but not from whiskey. For God has rocked you into a deep, deep sleep,
put the discerning prophets to sleep,
put the farsighted seers to sleep.
11-12What you've been shown here is somewhat like a letter in a sealed envelope. If you give it to someone who can read and tell her, "Read this," she'll say, "I can't. The envelope is sealed." And if you give it to someone who can't read and tell him, "Read this," he'll say, "I can't read."
13-14 The Master said: "These people make a big show of saying the right thing, but their hearts aren't in it. Because they act like they're worshiping me but don't mean it, I'm going to step in and shock them awake, astonish them, stand them on their ears. The wise ones who had it all figured out will be exposed as fools. The smart people who thought they knew everything will turn out to know nothing."

and then James1: 25 But whoever catches a glimpse of the revealed counsel of God—the free life!—even out of the corner of his eye, and sticks with it, is no distracted scatterbrain but a man or woman of action. That person will find delight and affirmation in the action.

I think maybe it's time to hang on...to stick with it......what an amazing God