Hosea 10-12; Ps. 73; Hebrews 4

Have you ever read Hosea 11?

Heartbreaking

and then 12:6....What are you waiting for? Return to our God! Commit yourself in love, in justice. Wait for your God and don't give up on Him ever!

Turning back...not caught up in anger or embarassment or shame...turn back. A choice yesterday hard hearted today seeing it and the need to be soft to choose....

It has to start with me in the softness...

danger in a soft heart....
loving them w/o expectation...

hard hearted I don't worry about it or them or ....
hard hearted there's more guilt...

soft hearted.....fear
and yet in the fear is Your protection..

soft hearted = tears and pain
and yet HOPE

hard hearted....no tears ....no pain....no hope....

crap.....

so today humbly turning back and seeing ......today humbly crying out Help Me Abba...please....

and in the crying out I am struck by so many mixed emotions re: the MJ Memorial......can't help but think about him made King too soon....made King and enjoying the role when none of us are made for that role...it messes with us. It messed w/him....so I am sad. Sad to have been a part of the machine that made him...sad to have been part of the machine that ruined him....

I keep thinking today of the story of the frog in boiling water...
How if you put a frog in a pot of water and slowly turn up the heat he won't try to jump out...he will simply die in the heating up....

I keep thinking we are like the frog...born into a world that is heating up rapidly......and the getting out has to be done in humility.....we are none of us humble, not one...we must be humbled and when that happens where do we go?? In the brokenness what happens.....do we go soft or get hard, working hard to guarantee it, being broken, doesn't happen again....

We can only get out when we ask for Your help, when we turn humbly to You and ask Jesus to save us...
otherwise the pot just gets hotter and we are eventually simply cooked.....
we can't pull others... out we can only point them to You and their own humility asking for help saves them, YOU save them.....
so can I live pointing others to You.....
the alternative is too horrifying.....
watching people cook in the pot of this world....
and yet pointing people to You doesn't make me popular....

and there it is...the reason I won't step up I care more about what people think than about their cooking....?? crap