2 Kings 18 &19; 2 Chronicles 32; James 5

I don't feel real good, good old fashioned cold coming on.....and it's rainy.....

On the up side had a good morning w/women exploring curiously each other. Asking questions and finding out how we think about 'things'...about God...about relationships....

Have a weekend coming w/my oldest friends who know nothing and care nothing about a Journey...about talking about You ...at least that is my perception....I want to...ask them questions about their lives....I like talking deeply and hate surface....hate bitchin about husbands and kids....

On the up side it's not come and gone yet...who knows what this weekend could look like...not expecting anything but hopeful....

2 Kings 18: 5 -6 Hezekiah put his whole trust in the God of Israel. There was no king quite like him, either before or after. He held fast to God—never loosened his grip—and obeyed to the letter everything God had commanded Moses. And God, for his part, held fast to him through all his adventures.

I want to be like Hezekiah where these women are concerned...where this weekend is concerned....what is it I withhold, why do I loosen my grip? Where does my disobedience show the most?? Why do I just freakin sit here and cry.....what is it that I am withholding??? Why do I not trust You with them?? Why don't I just do what You say and in Your love, love them without expecting depth????

and then in James these seem to conflict for me...7-8 Meanwhile, friends, wait patiently for the Master's Arrival. You see farmers do this all the time, waiting for their valuable crops to mature, patiently letting the rain do its slow but sure work. Be patient like that. Stay steady and strong. The Master could arrive at any time.

I have in the past spoken words, planted seeds, stumbled over the Gospel, tried to go deep not to wait paitiently???

orrrr....19-20 My dear friends, if you know people who have wandered off from God's truth, don't write them off. Go after them. Get them back and you will have rescued precious lives from destruction and prevented an epidemic of wandering away from God.

I never know what to do....and today I just feel bad enough...to do nothing....hopefully this will pass....stop worrying I hear...pray...so today....I will PRAY for them, for me, for all of us.....