Jonah 3; Phil. 1

Eric twittered this morning " i am a fish out water -- God, reveal Your Kingdom to me today." putting words to the feelings after a meeting w/ a friend this morning...I don't know how to do 'this'........but You say 'stay the course'......so...this morning praying You help me stay in 'it' when all I want to do is run........

I can't do it 'right' I may never do it right but i have to keep on doing it ....Phillipians 1: 22-26 As long as I'm alive in this body, there is good work for me to do. If I had to choose right now, I hardly know which I'd choose. Hard choice! The desire to break camp here and be with Christ is powerful. Some days I can think of nothing better. But most days, because of what you are going through, I am sure that it's better for me to stick it out here. So I plan to be around awhile, companion to you as your growth and joy in this life of trusting God continues. You can start looking forward to a great reunion when I come visit you again. We'll be praising Christ, enjoying each other.
27-30 Meanwhile, live in such a way that you are a credit to the Message of Christ. Let nothing in your conduct hang on whether I come or not. Your conduct must be the same whether I show up to see things for myself or hear of it from a distance. Stand united, singular in vision, contending for people's trust in the Message, the good news, not flinching or dodging in the slightest before the opposition. Your courage and unity will show them what they're up against: defeat for them, victory for you—and both because of God. There's far more to this life than trusting in Christ. There's also suffering for him. And the suffering is as much a gift as the trusting. You're involved in the same kind of struggle you saw me go through, on which you are now getting an updated report in this letter.

Somedays tho....the going home sounds soooooo good. Just feeling like it's harder than it should be with the people I want it, thot it would be easier with........

and then...then I read people like Mark Batterson his 2 latest posts touch me deeply..... "I have a simple definition of success: do the best you can with what you have where you are. If you are faithful right here and right now, then one day you might get to Spain. You might not. But you will be the kind of person God can use anywhere anytime! "