1 Kings 22; 2 Chronicles 18 & 19; Colossians 4

Spirit Alive vs. Good Enough
Leading your heart......??
Authenticity vs Vulnerability.....??
Authenticity is either a Value or an Event....??

oh and ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH aieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

There THAT'S what's rolling around in there this morning Father, what I bring to the table this morning....and yet You still say COME.....:)

aaaahhhhh
1 Kings 22 and 2 Chron 18.......400 Prophets saying YES and one says NO.....says No and gets punched in the nose, well, Chronicles says slapped in the face..who you gonna believe you know?? the point is.......guess who was right??

and then to hear.....Colossians 4: 5-6 Use your heads as you live and work among outsiders. Don't miss a trick. Make the most of every opportunity. Be gracious in your speech. The goal is to bring out the best in others in a conversation, not put them down, not cut them out.

it's not about BEING explored it's about EXPLORING others....when authentically speaking I would kind of like to BE explored.....but I guess when you talk all the time who thinks you have anything else to say.....I've done that my whole life drained the very life out of people in wanting to BE heard and understood. And now I come here and dump and process and hope and pray that YOU are developing in me a GENUINE curiousity about others....bringing out the best in THEM.......I think I suck most of the time but those times when I am hearing YOU and saying NO in the midst of YES's.....maybe...until then like Larry Crabb says I guess it's just messy and I am blessed to be amongst people trying to be Spirit Alive too...done with Good Enough or trying to be.....