2 Samuel 4& 5; Psalm 139; Matthew 16

2+ years of meeting over, thinking it's the right thing but dang it just hurts....Brylie and I met for over 2 years, maybe closer to 3....I think we're both supposed to meet w/'others' ...but dang I like the comfortability that 2+ years bring and yet.....I imagine there is a point to meeting w/someone else.....it's not that I don't want to, it's just that we know each other, we challenge each other and now to think about building a new relationship in Christ just seems way more uncomfortable.....But if I seek more to live in comfort.....

I am going to miss her like crazy and praying someone else benefits from her constant curiousity.....

David and Peter.....just give you so much peace WHEN you really look at them......

so today in the tears, the scared softness...looking at them....remembering You aren't looking for the put together, the successful and smartest...You are looking for hearts seeking You.....so while soft is defintely scarier and filled w/tears it is the way I want to live and risking more and more in the softness.....

Psalm 139: 13 For you created my inmost being;

you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.

When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.

All the days ordained for me were written in your book

before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!

How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand.

When I awake, I am still with you.