1 Samuel 25 - 26; Psalm 63; Matthew 9

'Words don't match my actions'....ouch and then who the hell do you think you are saying that and then ouch again....and then just heart broken at the truth of it....and fear that they never will.....

Matthew 9: 29-31 He touched their eyes and said, "Become what you believe." It happened. They saw. Then Jesus became very stern. "Don't let a soul know how this happened." But they were hardly out the door before they started blabbing it to everyone they met.

Kind of like yesterday Matt. 8: 3-4 Jesus reached out and touched him, saying, "I want to. Be clean." Then and there, all signs of the leprosy were gone. Jesus said, "Don't talk about this all over town. Just quietly present your healed body to the priest, along with the appropriate expressions of thanks to God. Your cleansed and grateful life, not your words, will bear witness to what I have done." realizing that probably wasn't true of my life and then today to hear those words.....so what now....

Telling _____________ to be quiet and I haven't learned it...CRAP....to KNOW what to do and NOT do it...just CRAP....so again like yesterday be more David and not Saul.....not to get stuck in the shame and just try again.....Thank You Father that we can.