Thursday, February 19, 2009

Numbers 5 & 6; Psalm 22; Acts 26

My particular brand of CRAZY......we all got one I think, some of us just a bit more CRAZY than others...a bit more unbearable......or at least that's what I think of mine as.....which may be prideful and make me think I'm special to some...it doesn't FEEL that way it just feels the least marketable...yeah that's it unmarketable....

So you live with it hidden.....and when you see it in someone else, it completely verifies WHY you keep it hidden.......and yet hidden is not honest.....not being vulnerable.....authentic...

but CRAZY is CRAZY.....I don't think YOU can't use it I do think it's pretty unusable without You.....

And in reading Ps. 22 sounds like David suffered from his own brand of CRAZY...and maybe I understand some of what he felt...some

And today would be this verse.....Acts 26: 24 That was too much for Festus. He interrupted with a shout: "Paul, you're crazy! You've read too many books, spent too much time staring off into space! Get a grip on yourself, get back in the real world!"
25-27 But Paul stood his ground. "With all respect, Festus, Your Honor, I'm not crazy. I'm both accurate and sane in what I'm saying. The king knows what I'm talking about. I'm sure that nothing of what I've said sounds crazy to him. He's known all about it for a long time. You must realize that this wasn't done behind the scenes. You believe the prophets, don't you, King Agrippa? Don't answer that—I know you believe."
28 But Agrippa did answer: "Keep this up much longer and you'll make a Christian out of me!"
29 Paul, still in chains, said, "That's what I'm praying for, whether now or later, and not only you but everyone listening today, to become like me—except, of course, for this prison jewelry!"
30-31 The king and the governor, along with Bernice and their advisors, got up and went into the next room to talk over what they had heard. They quickly agreed on Paul's innocence, saying, "There's nothing in this man deserving prison, let alone death."
32 Agrippa told Festus, "He could be set free right now if he hadn't requested the hearing before Caesar."

Maybe when my Dad called me crazy IF I hadn't of taken it so freakin personal....maybe IF I'd kept talking and loving him...he'd know you now.....??? maybe.....I don't know.....

1 comment:

STACY'S TRIP said...

It always does come back to our parents doesn't it. Trying to make peace in my mind with my Mom and not just fake it. I want her to believe and know too ya know?!?! Yea, you know.

Aspirations for the here and now:

  • Ask way more questions than offer answers.
  • Be more spontaneous and outrageous, loving with an abandon that isn't about me.
  • Be who I am even if she is crazy and weird
  • Do a good deed for a stranger
  • Don't be afraid to dream
  • Enjoy more sunrises.
  • Enjoy my husband and family.
  • Everyone has a story, listen to them.
  • Find a dreaming friend
  • Go on a picnic with Dan
  • Go snorkeling again.
  • Hear You
  • Help someone
  • Hike/walk regularly
  • Learn to live more and more SIMPLE
  • Learn to live without 'blinking'
  • Learn to love, really love
  • Learn to say I'm sorry w/o a 'but'
  • Learn to, strive to, be 'other' centered
  • Learn what it is to BE a friend
  • Lose 20 more pounds and take another trip to LA
  • Love, love, love on my Grandkids
  • Make a new friend
  • Read MORE books, make the time to read
  • Take alot of photos and learn how to take better ones and share better the ones I take.

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