Numbers 21 -23; Mark 6 & 7

We 'get to' hang out w/people on Thursday nites and talk 'marriages' and all the stuff that goes along w/that like betrayal and the loss of the fairy tale and busting what was broken in the first place and......hope. It's as close to Acts 2 living as I have found and just wish I could spread it around....even wondering how far He's gonna take us.
Numbers 21: 4 They traveled from Mount Hor along the route to the Red Sea, [c] to go around Edom. But the people grew impatient on the way; 5 they spoke against God and against Moses, and said, "Why have you brought us up out of Egypt to die in the desert? There is no bread! There is no water! And we detest this miserable food!"
Impaptient and demanding, the two just go together.....I am scared of my own impatience.....
really really scared..I know You're with me...ahead and behind and I am scared of how I will move in the inbetween space .......
Mark 6: Immediately he spoke to them and said, "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid." 51 Then he climbed into the boat with them, and the wind died down. They were completely amazed, 52 for they had not understood about the loaves; their hearts were hardened.
So them wandering around in the desert didn't understand His presence His provision ....they were dissatisfied with it.....the miracle of it was lost to them......just like feeding 5000 w/a couple of loaves and fishes, the miracle was lost to the apostles....I live so blessed the miracles around me are lost and I am impatient to see more??? Impatient and don't forget demanding.....I don't know how to live grateful and will spend the rest of this life learning......softening my heart pleading with You to soften it and to live understanding and grateful....