2 Timothy 3

I woke up at 2 this morning and was not anxious ...I was grateful.... in the lying awake instead of staying there, the wrestling began. Wondering if the wrestling is a sign of ungratefulness? I am so grateful I 'get to ' wrestle......in the wrestling I lose and in the brokenness that follows I come closer and closer to truths...but are they simply my truths or Yours??

Msg vs. 10-13 You've been a good apprentice to me, a part of my teaching, my manner of life, direction, faith, steadiness, love, patience, troubles, sufferings—suffering along with me in all the grief I had to put up with in Antioch, Iconium, and Lystra. And you also well know that God rescued me! Anyone who wants to live all out for Christ is in for a lot of trouble; there's no getting around it. Unscrupulous con men will continue to exploit the faith. They're as deceived as the people they lead astray. As long as they are out there, things can only get worse.
14-17 But don't let it faze you. Stick with what you learned and believed, sure of the integrity of your teachers—why, you took in the sacred Scriptures with your mother's milk! There's nothing like the written Word of God for showing you the way to salvation through faith in Christ Jesus. Every part of Scripture is God-breathed and useful one way or another—showing us truth, exposing our rebellion, correcting our mistakes, training us to live God's way. Through the Word we are put together and shaped up for the tasks God has for us.

I think that's why I blog the Bible....I so desire others to be in this with me, softening ever softening to what He says.....I don't want to be one of those who uses the Word to beat others up, I want to stay soft...can I be too soft, am I called to challenge?? ...I don't want to be a freak .......and yet...and yet.... praying to live a life of RISK.....sounds pretty risky doesn't it. No wonder I wrestle.......