Luke 9

reading plan here...

where I spent the weekend...On the lake with friends got a bit of the flu but the friends were dear enough to just let me be. And in my absence they got to know my husband, I think they were pretty lucky. We had a great ride on the bike down and back, we had hoped though for more of the fall colors and the leaves were still holding onto their green.

Dreamt last nite of finding a snake in a hole and trying to get rid of it by stepping on the hole and with my foot over it's revealing itself fully, I couldn't really 'kill it'....discovering I was going to have to let it come out of it's hole, to see it...face it.... in order to really get rid of it. I think I connect the dream with how I live my life wanting to BE a different person, wanting to get rid of what I haven't fully seen...??... (did I mention I really never dream) I think I've been told or 'heard' for a long time who I'm not and now it's up to me to discover who I could be...??.....who You're calling me to be... Can I live in nakedness showing myself for who I am. Trusting a shepherd I don't see.... I think there are moments of relational nakedness and vulnerability but more often than not I just am so afraid of who I really am , showing who I really am... I try to keep my foot over the hole.....and keep the snake hidden.....???

(Msg) vs. 23-27 Then he told them what they could expect for themselves: "Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat—I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? If any of you is embarrassed with me and the way I'm leading you, know that the Son of Man will be far more embarrassed with you when he arrives in all his splendor in company with the Father and the holy angels. This isn't, you realize, pie in the sky by and by. Some who have taken their stand right here are going to see it happen, see with their own eyes the kingdom of God."