Luke 15

A jumble of emotions today and risking everything sounds a bit 'riskier' than usual. Would love to be a person of DECISION, a person of strength....today feeling small and anxious in spite of the dangers to become smaller....crazy scared and fighting it and yet inviting it at the same time.....

And it would have to be the story of the Prodigal...the elder brother...me....every stinkin time me.... and breaking my heart finally or again .....that in that elderness I am every bit as far away from the Father as the prodigal.....embarassment turning to shame turning to .......

(msg) vs. 31-32 "His father said, 'Son, you don't understand. You're with me all the time, and everything that is mine is yours—but this is a wonderful time, and we had to celebrate. This brother of yours was dead, and he's alive! He was lost, and he's found!'"