2 Kings 1 - 3; Psalm 82; 1 Timothy 1

Alot of conversations yesterday, alot of thinking, and tears and worrying and praying...and then Baptisms last nite. A morning spent with women who are seeking You and seeking to figure out what living a life in Christ 'could', is supposed to.... look like. What giving away a love that we've found could be , could should would look like.....letting each other into our confusions...asking, being asked questions that stir us up.....
Does God react?
Thoughts versus feelings?
As a child we have and react to feelings. We, as we grow and ‘mature’ (?) adapt our reacting to those feelings to the reactions of others. Some of us defiantly continue to demand what we want and others of us internalize those reactions to our feelings and …and…..manipulate situations to continue to get what we want (no less demanding just going about it differently) ……and some in the internalization find You…..that leaves it us, to us…..is it, at all up to us?? You are a God who loves us and desires us to follow you, You are a God who made everything, You are a God that I can never fully understand….??? You say come to YOU as children……my feelings now are to follow, my thoughts take me over and over back to You…..like a child, thinks on her Daddy we are to think on You?
What about those who have Fathers that abuse and neglect and ……

I don’t know where my thoughts are this morning….there’s a lot tumbling around in there. I don’t believe You are a ‘reactionary’ God. I believe in Your sovereignty. I believe in Your omniscience, Your omnipresence, Your irrational love and goodness, grace and mercy. Don’t understand it, all of it, but believe it. Does that belief system effect my reactions? Hmmmm

I don’t know and when I don’t know I………..
1 Timothy 1
1-2 I, Paul, am an apostle on special assignment for Christ, our living hope. Under God our Savior's command, I'm writing this to you, Timothy, my son in the faith. All the best from our God and Christ be yours!
Self-Appointed Experts on Life
3-4 On my way to the province of Macedonia, I advised you to stay in Ephesus. Well, I haven't changed my mind. Stay right there on top of things so that the teaching stays on track. Apparently some people have been introducing fantasy stories and fanciful family trees that digress into silliness instead of pulling the people back into the center, deepening faith and obedience. 5-7 The whole point of what we're urging is simply love—love uncontaminated by self-interest and counterfeit faith, a life open to God. Those who fail to keep to this point soon wander off into cul-de-sacs of gossip. They set themselves up as experts on religious issues, but haven't the remotest idea of what they're holding forth with such imposing eloquence.
8-11 It's true that moral guidance and counsel need to be given, but the way you say it and to whom you say it are as important as what you say. It's obvious, isn't it, that the law code isn't primarily for people who live responsibly, but for the irresponsible, who defy all authority, riding roughshod over God, life, sex, truth, whatever! They are contemptuous of this great Message I've been put in charge of by this great God.
12-14 I'm so grateful to Christ Jesus for making me adequate to do this work. He went out on a limb, you know, in trusting me with this ministry. The only credentials I brought to it were invective and witch hunts and arrogance. But I was treated mercifully because I didn't know what I was doing—didn't know Who I was doing it against! Grace mixed with faith and love poured over me and into me. And all because of Jesus. 15-1Here's a word you can take to heart and depend on: Jesus Christ came into the world to save sinners. I'm proof—Public Sinner Number One—of someone who could never have made it apart from sheer mercy. And now he shows me off—evidence of his endless patience—to those who are right on the edge of trusting him forever.
Deep honor and bright glory
to the King of All Time—
One God, Immortal, Invisible,
ever and always. Oh, yes!
I'm passing this work on to you, my son Timothy. The prophetic word that was directed to you prepared us for this. All those prayers are coming together now so you will do this well, fearless in your struggle, keeping a firm grip on your faith and on yourself. After all, this is a fight we're in.
19-20 There are some, you know, who by relaxing their grip and thinking anything goes have made a thorough mess of their faith. Hymenaeus and Alexander are two of them. I let them wander off to Satan to be taught a lesson or two about not blaspheming.

I go into Your word and sink deeply there……like a child TRUSTING her Daddy I try to ‘ be still’ and ……..