Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Proverbs 7-9 ; Romans 9

Today as I read it seemed as tho the words were just words, bouncing around in my brain, not even touching my heart.... Still in the reading of them and listening to my husband and how the words hit him I see how what is going on in me hinders anything NEW getting in. How I ‘think’ what I think and in that thinking / obsessing miss what You want me to think on. The sadness I experience is just me, dying to what I want I hope….

Sad that we I get it sooooo freakin wrong.
Sad that it’s supposed to be about LOVE and we I all just hurt each other.
Sad that we I make it so convoluted and twisted that we I can’t even talk to each other about it…about Him…
Sad that we I separate ourselves in the stupidest ways when I believe He intended us to join together and LOVE people to Him.
Sad that I have all these feelings and no way to communicate them without feeling discounted. Sad that I even care about feeling discounted.
Sad that the internet becomes more important than the Bible….sad that people become more important than what He says…..sad that we I never seem to come together and LOVE….sad that we I don’t worry more about others than ourselves…..sad that I think there is a WE instead of me just worrying about me and how little I love and care about others and labeling it as such….sad that I will always be that judgemental and afraid to just admit how I get it wrong..how I hurt people….
Sad that something so wonderful is this hard to live.
Sad that I try to save instead of simply LOVE.

Matthew 11: 28-30"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."
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2 comments:

kyles said...

Strange or maybe not.... on the day this was posted my husband, who has mnd/als was having his first stem cell treatment 1000's of km's away from us in mexico, a journey that has been pushed by faith. He was given a bible and a thoughts book from the wonderful people of the first baptist church - weslaco, who have been great support - we are from australia and are quite out of our element in the usa. Today my husband rang me and said Matthew 11:28-30 keeps showing up, at the front of the bible the church gave him and in the book where he was reading about adversity(I don't know if he has even picked up a bible before or read a christian book). Maybe it's for him or maybe it's for me......

May 29, 2008 at 11:21 PM
Gigi said...

Thanks for this....

May 30, 2008 at 3:28 PM

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